cut - bled - dead

2005-11-10T06:37:00.000-08:00

You can run and you can begin'
In a place where you don't fit in
Love will find a way... yeah

When you're down, you can start again
Turn around anything you're in
Love will find a place yeah

If you got one heart you are followin'
One dream keeps you wondering
Love lights your way through the night
One wish keeps you tryin'
What's your silver lining
Loves lights your way through the night

You can fall a thousand time
You can feel like you've lost your mind
Love will find a way oh yeah yeah
In a minute it can change your life
In a moment it can make you right
Love will find a place yeah

If you got one heart you are followin'
One dream keeps you wondering
Love lights your way through the night
One wish keeps you tryin'
What's your silver linin'
Loves lights your way through the night

Everybody needs something to hold on to
Everybody needs something to hold on to
if you got one heart you are followin'
one dream keeps u wondering
love lights your way through the night
One wish keeps you tryin'
What's your silver linin'
Loves lights your way through the night

One wish keeps you tryin'
What's your silver linin'
Loves lights your way through the night

Love will find a way
Love will find a way in your heart

2005-11-08T15:10:00.000-08:00

havent been blogging since dunno when.
well, re-dl maple again. computer down.
nothing much. loving that carrot.

-bye-

2005-10-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

well, birthday today. didnt celebrate it today, cos last 3 days already been celebrating liao. hahas. hmmm, benn receiveing sms'es and call's since 12am ytd. thanks to all my friends and buddy's. well, sotong was the greaters, hahas, called me at 11:50:43pm-24oct. haa. till 12, den happy birthday. well, wd can i say? i love that sotong too much yeah?! missing sotong right now. but got some people, i dunno lar. dont wanan talk abt that person lar? hurr.

well, gotta meet up wid some friends and buddy next time. to get my presents? lalala. haa. ok lar. byebye.

happy 15th birthday to myself. =)

i am missing that sotong right now.

2005-10-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

out today. from 11.30am to 9.30pm.

went, town wid jot. shop here and there. everywhere. she brought a spect's. den we took lots ad lots and lots of picture's. than we went to take our luch/breakfast. well, den shop and shop again. walk and walk. saw lots of weird people in town today. dunno why also. don't even look like we are in the town. like erm, ufo?!

then, went to bugis. shop and shop again. leg breaking. but we hack care. went to taatto shop. benn to lots and lots of those shop. but got one in erm, bugis de? that uncle? lols. joker yar? yi li long. hahas. * tsk tsk *

then, went to fisherman. by that time it was already 6pm? something likedat ba? then we slack there. had lots of fun there. hahas. then, got a call from tay. hahas. she jialat liao lar. hahas. gotta make those art paper!!! hahas. wu gui lai de. LOLS. well, then went off back to mrt station. den die lar. meet some problems. got one "normal" guy?! gave us $2?! den, ask weather we wanan eat apple not. siao de. we ran off to a cab, we ran, and he ran to catch up to us. asked for our name and no. siao. i think he wanna raped joy? lols!!! * kidding * lar. hahas. but we manage to ran off into the cab lar. still worried abt it. but wad can we do?!

yar, den reach simei mrt, take train back home. tired right now. yawns.
anw, we had lots of fun yar?

happy brithday to me. hahas.

2005-10-23T04:24:00.000-07:00

how i wish i didnt say those words.
how i wish i could pick up the fone and say something nicer.
how i wish i could change my attitude.

haiis, how stupid i'm for showing my attitude.
haiis, how i wish " sotong " could forgive me.
haiis, how i wish nothing could happen at all.

can you, pls. contact me?
can you, pls. at lease sms me?
can you, pls. forgive me?

2005-10-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

just change blogskin last 2 days.
nothing much this few days.
exam's over. but result sure s*ck's.
flung all. haiis.

well, today got sch de, but didnt go.
wake up at 6.30am, mapled.
out later.

well, bdea coming, dont even know what i gonna do.
most probley go out wid [x]starsy's.
ZOO?! lols.
wish myself had a grreat time 1st ba?!
hope everything's alright, and going out well.

sgining off --- the zhu tou. * elmo's world+sotong land *

2005-10-18T13:40:00.000-07:00

was busy last few days. so now den update, nothing much. exam and exam, no matter how hard i try, i still can't make it. wtf!! haiis.

sotong means sotong, nothing can change the facts.

bye.

2005-10-10T19:40:00.000-07:00

i'm here to blog, just becase you wanted me to.
well, maple just now. level up by one. continue tmr, if you wanna me to.

facing the world with an empty heart
i could disappear into the dark,
and you were the one who could make my dreams come ture
my dream it's you.
when you're not around my heart stood still
within you'll remain i've always been

illusion says there is another person
who will interfere into my plan.

- specially to one of my friend -

2005-10-07T15:32:00.000-07:00

too lost for words.

heys, karilynn, 4 days call very long ar?

2005-10-01T10:45:00.000-07:00

didnt blog for awhile ler. too much things happening. just wishing for peace for the furture ba? reach home at 1.30am ytd, dead tired now. anw, my poor sotong dunno how to walk sa. walk also can get hurt. LOL. exam comming ler.. and i'm dead.

bye.

2005-09-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

everything is not right.
our gap is getting bigger and bigger.
i'm falling.

the light of my life is gone.
i can't find my ways anymore..
i dont even know how to walk forward for my life aft tmr.
i'm so lost

everything just seems lost.

2005-09-23T18:20:00.000-07:00

if you don't know me by now
you will never know me
all the things that we've been through
you should understand me like i understand you

now girl i know the difference between right and wrong
i ain't gonna do nothing to break up our happy home
don't get so excited when i come home a little late at night
cos we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight

we've all got our own funny moods
i've got mine, woman you've got yours too
just trust me like i trust in you
as long as we've been together it should be so easy to do
just get yourself together or we might as well say goodbye
what good is a love affair when you can't see eye to eye

if you still don't know me by now
you will never never never know me.

- bring me back like we use to -

2005-09-21T19:20:00.000-07:00

i cant fight this feeling any longer
and yet i'm still afraid to let it flow
what started out as friendship, has grown stronger
i only wish i had the strength to let it show

i tell myself that i can't hold out forever
i said there is no reason for my fear
cause i feel so secure when we're together
you give my life direction
you make everything so clear

and even as i wander
i'm keeping you in sight
you're a candle in the window
on a cold, dark winter's nights
and i'm getting closer than i ever thought i might

and i can't fight this feeling anymore
i've forgotten what i started fighting for
it's time to bring the ship into the shore
and throw away the oars, forever
cause i can't fight this feeling anymore

my life has been such a whirlwind since i saw you
i've been running round in circles in my mind
and it always seems that i'm following you
cause you take me to a places that alone i'd never find

- gone -

2005-09-20T21:10:00.000-07:00

sky too high.
clouds too much.
ocean too deep.

i can't reach.
i feel like sinking.
i feel like dying.

i'm so lost.

so lost without your voice.
so lost without your touch.
so lost without you by my side.
i'm just too lost in the paradise.

- my pain your thrill -
to give it up is to accept your fate.
to give it up is to creat peace.
to give it up is to gain the upper hand

and

to give it up is to have it all.
- gone -

2005-09-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

in kl now, nothing to do, so blog now lor. hmmm, ytd starts car at around 7.30pm. den reach checkpoint kana traffic jam sa. so stuck there for like 50mins?! hurr. and i just continue wid my music/songs from my phone. den reach kl(cousin hse) at 3am. den play pool wid bro till late midnight. went back to room aft that, cant slp. had some chatting wid them. woke up at 9am like dat, out for breakfast den stroll here and there. den home again. play some game wid the P.S-2. den out again. till now den had a nice rest. later going out again lar. yawns. tmr will have more programs to go on ba?

anw, nana --- one and a half day more lor. lols. dont miss me too much ok? hahas. if u really do so, den hug ur bloster and cry?! lols. shhhh... ok ler. i'll try to online if i got the time. byes.

lost in the paradise -----

2005-09-12T20:52:00.000-07:00

school starts again, aft a week of holiday. nothing much lar. but, kana from teacher today, abt my hair? too long? ask her eat Sh*t lar. lols. hmmm, and ya. finally got a new POA teacher again. i also dunno wads her name lar. hack care.

aft school stay back for training again. my nana so jialat de, wanna strock wid me. lols. who wins huhs? lols. training was not bad today, win quite alot? yeah. got improvement ler. aft training rain so HEAVILY. took some pictures inside the school building. brrowed a towel from leon. den me and nana hand to hand, run out from sch to eastpoint. cold+wet+s*cky and blah blah blah lar. run till so fast lor. like dunno wad sa. lols. i didnt know she can run so fast. hahas. but still i reach the bus stop 1st. i still help her carry bag sa. so good rite? lols. yeah. of cos wad? tunakey chin MUST be good to NANA de ma? make sense rite? hahas. den go toilet wash up. and ya. go home aft that. cut hair also lar. hurr. bored now.

byes~ back to my msn now ler.

2005-09-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

today morning, got a morning call from wei ting. grrr. look for my bro somemore de sa. irriting. lols. aft that 11.30am went to eastpoint. meet "them" den mr chong treat "us" hans'-river. i think he must be broke ler lar. lol. $250++ i think. is like we eat till full like like dunno what lar. lols. yum yum. but my nana and bananna not there leh.? lols. if not, its gonna be fun!!! after eating, when to sports hall. go choose our shirt. dont have the type that i like sa. $20 somemore. dead ler lar. i'm broke. hais. aft that they went back to sch for badminton training again. actually i wanted to go back de, but end up, lazy u know? so nvr lor. hahahas. alone now at home sa. bored till like shit. and i'm missing the old days badly right now. *mood-swing*

you're cruel device.
your blood like ice.
one look could kill.
my pain your thrill.

i wanna love you but i better not touch.
i wanna hold you but my sense tell me to stop.
i wanna kiss you but i want it too much.
i wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison.

you're poison running through my veins.
you're poison.
i dont wanna break the chains.

2005-09-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Ytd badminton match. gal's won all the match sa. for me actually i thought i only play double. end up. played single and double. but nvm lar. hahas. won ma. 11-3,11-3. 15-0,15-0. nice score. lols. anw, mr.chong gg treat us pizza ler, on this friday, i think. muhaha. k-lynn so cute sa. but too bad, she dont wanna take the pic. humphs. after training went home bath,change,take books. den out to study at library again. dunno why he so "wad" ytd lar hor. sianz de. den is like make me very fed up also lar. now nvm ler lar. yu guo tian qian ler. hahas. and ya, i lost my hp de batt sa. sianz. sad-ed ar. who can buy me one???!!!! lols.

dont be too good, i'll miss you. dont be too caring, i might like you. dont be too sweet, i might fall for you. it's hard for me to love you when you wont love me at all. a person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than i love him. if someone comes into your life and become a part of you but for some reason he couldn't stay, dont cry too much. just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy even for a little while. time will tell. if he's your's, he will surely come back. dont throw your back to love when its already in front of you. someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you. treasure the ones who loves you. it's not easy to find a person who loves you. it's not easy to find a person who loves you. it's always more valuable to have a sincera heart. the greatest regrets in our lives are the risk we did not take. if you think something will make you happy. GO FOR IT.

2005-09-03T11:00:00.000-07:00

we were once stars.
we were bright and pretty,
hopeful beautiful glittering gemstones
in an infinite stretch of caliginous velvet.

then
we
Exploded.

and here we are now,
sunk so far into the velvet
that we wore our fingers down to the bone
desperately trying to claw our way out.

we are well over terminal velocity
(and just under escape),
feeling eleven kinds of emptiness
and screaming our throats into oblivion

2005-09-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

why should i risk everything, when u risk nothing.

you hurting me.

2005-09-01T19:15:00.000-07:00

thank you -- nana

i love you. be mine.

2005-08-24T18:15:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so dead. exam.study.stress.sick. kao. i didnt know im so weak. haiz. today ss paper so hard sa. aft that went home ler. cos sick. ytd puke the whole night ar, didnt even counted as sleep. mother wanna bring me to see doc, but i rejected. dunno why i dont wanna also lar. my hp spoil also liao. need to buy new one. buy dunno wad to buy lehx. how stress. im so broke. *KO_DEAD* ken is like super angry wid me, its really my fault this time round. sorry k? dont so xiao qi lar. dui bu qi. (: oh ya, joy, i nd the bag, back. ok. gtg pia my maths for tmr ler. byes. *keykey*

2005-08-20T14:50:00.000-07:00

haiz, exam on monday. and i am studying till like crazy!!! i just tear a page of notes for my chem and that ken is so angry wid me. sorry lar k? haiz. so fed up wid everything. and i hate ppl who dont reply sms, its like so sucky can? wad the f*ck. grrr. so sick now sa. haiz. wad t do? just stay here and die ba?! but wad about my promise? haiz, wad are friends for? feeling really sick rite now. sorry ken. --- may you have enough happiness to make you sweet. enough trails to make you strong. enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. there's a place in my heart, someone special, who i always turn to. you're always by my side. uniquely you. ---

2005-08-17T18:20:00.000-07:00

ahyok, today maths test so hard!!! but can pass. lols. lame lame lame --- (by ken). and POA common test, i dont even know a single things about poa sa, so how am i gonna pass it? anw, today aft sch go tm. wid joy and 2 others "friends".. had a nice+happy+cold lunch. sis birthday today also lar? so yar? HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SISTER!!! anw, ken soooo angry today sa!!! hang my phone when i tear the PAPER!!! he "sucks"... "i hate him". nvr meet him today. he went home and slack, sleep somemore sa. so pig lor. unlike me, so guai stay in sch and study!!! later gonna buy sis bdea stuff and i got to study also. yawns. btw, guys -- pg.140 for phy are impt. (qn.2,4,6)!!! so please study and read through for tmr test yar? --- Dream what you want to dream. Go where you want to go. Be what you want to be. Beacuse you have only one life. And one chance to do all the things you want to be. the happiest of people dont necessarily. have the best of everything. they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. ---

2005-08-15T20:06:00.000-07:00

haizxXxzZz... "nana" please help me wid that curry fish head!!! i gonna puke when seeing the fish head nxt few days ler. sob*. anw, today alot of things happen sa. haiz. all not really good de. just wanna say that, life is really impt, when a person is dead, it dosen't mean that its a bad thing. sometime a person is dead, cos the god really think that she/he really have t leave this world from his/her problems, or anthing. but as for da family member... they should try t take care and forget abt the pain for now ba? and concentrate on their studies and work. it's for their own good. just take it easy please. my dearest god sis. we will always be there for you when you need us. we/i promise!!! BE STONG~~~(TZ) anw, joy!!! i love that wall!!! anw, i know ur're stress now ba?! dont think too much yea? i dont think u can really don anything much of now also lar? even me, myself also sad!!! --- Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away... Expect the unexpected.. --- May a rainbow always shine above you and may a friend be always by your side ---

2005-08-13T15:53:00.000-07:00

yawns. alone at home now. OMG my life is just so bored! nothing much today. slack the whole day at home. dont feel like going anywhere also lar. exam coming ler * pang pang - KO_dead * i dont even understand a single thing in class. how am i continue like this? anw, just re-format da computer, so all my songs and pic are totally gone. but hang i got my "nana" to help me save and send it t me. thanks. -- haiz, think of my[Xstarssy] - i really miss all the times that we had. even thought its not a long time we had really spent together. i've i kept all the happy hours we spent together. all e words for OUR last day at kfc broke my heart into pieces. i can't do anything but t wish all of u luck in watever thing u all do. i cant tell how much i really wish that time could go back. i cant even show out to THEM how much i wish to.... everytime im feeling down, e 4 of u just run through my mind fast.. but all i can do is NOTHING!!! -- I feel so cold, I feel so lonely, feel like nothing’s going right. I feel so broken, feel so mistreated and abused by my feelings. I feel so low, I feel so cornered everyday. I feel so lost, I feel so lonely.

2005-08-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

kana woke up by just a msg from da shemilyn sa! grrr!!! anw, today nothing much lar, same thing,wake up for sch, sms the whole day in class! the stupid pe teacher nvr come sch today lor, waste my time only sa! waliao aye, ken so pig sa, whole day slacking on his own nice bed. he got gastric somemore yar? wonder how ler ? anw, aft sch... actually meeting up wid some friends de, end up.. pei joy,nowhere t go, slack the whole simei. den we bought da beer. finish everything sa! i drink more than her lor can? dunno who say wanna drink de, end up dunno do wad! haiz. kinda not feeling well, too weak ler. maybe going out tonight ler. oh yaah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEM!!! how old ler? grow up liao k? hahas. ok ler. byes. --- all de happiness it brings is more than enough. you are still de biggest part in me. all im living for. i still think bout u. i still dream bout u.. i still want you, need you by my side. im still crazy over u.. all i ever wanted was u..you r still de one. still... itz hard t breathe when we r apart. ure like sunshine in my heart. i keep u here inside. ---

2005-08-11T07:32:00.000-07:00

yeehaa.. after a long weekend, finally when back t sch today! feel so sleepy in class for e whole day sa! cos ytd 3am++ den slp ba? yawns. the toopid "nana" and da meiting,make fun of me today morning,end up kana nag by the teacher!!! hahas. haiz, nothing much today-class was abit fun and lame ah! those guy's!!! aft sch meet up wid syaza they all.. den meet joy when she finish her sch wid the dunno wat stupid talk! aft that, saw shem+shar at KFC. she gg home aso lar, so went back together lor. had a nice chat wid shar yar? she's still so "lame" lar. haha. but, not bad,cos she bring me laughter! she now at the dental place ba? taking off her braces ler! yeah, so tmr can see her cute smile ler! woohoo!!! hoping for tmr morning!!! wanted t meet ken up today de, but end up, nope?! lols. ok ler, gtg yeah? back tmr. =) waiting for shar msg ler. byes.

2005-08-10T15:04:00.000-07:00

1st post. thanks t the peeps out there 1st,for helping me out wid this blog lar.so ma fan de. lols. having a bad sore throat now,all thanks t ytd BBQ!! grr!!! anw,just reach home not long,went to meet ken just now. gg out tonight ler. uncle all coming out from KL i think? not confirm yet. byes.